She Says Yes.

It happens without much notice, as with most things.  

How quickly you get backed into a safe, comfortable corner + decide to dwell there.  
{ I’d be willing to guess that a large portion of the population resides here. }

I had slid into this world + I didn’t even recognize that I was existing there.  
Over the course of years, an unhealthy relationship had imbued me into placing myself on the back-burner; eroding my confidence + ultimately impairing who I was. 

I had never been one to turn down a new experience.  

Ever. 

Was this the “new normal”?  

It certainly didn’t feel fulfilling, but comfortable enough.  It was just easier to say no.

So, when out of the blue, my life was flipped on it’s head.  “No” was no longer an option.  
I no longer had the luxury of turning down opportunities.  

That’s kind of a deceptive way to put it, because turning down opportunities isn’t really a luxury, it’s a life half-lived.  A life of simply existing.  

Breathing but with no real life.

I made a marked decision.  Not only did I want to focus on saying “Yes”, but I had to.  

Even when I was filled with fear + hesitation.  Even when didn’t think I wanted to.  
Even if I was exhausted.  
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Even if.

{{ oh my wordy.  you guys. }}  

As I'm typing this { right after “turning down opportunities isn’t a luxury …” }  

I received an email from my lovely auntie pointing me to a communications position that was just made available.  

Opportunity.

What do you think I did?  

I placed this post on pause for a few minutes + followed up.  

On the spot.  

Good opportunities aren't always accompanied with signs + wonders.  Not every opportunity is right for every person.  But when you table the fear, you would be amazed at what will happen when you allow opportunity through the door instead of just letting it knock.  If it's meant to be, it will be.  But, you have to say yes.

'Cause guess what?  

Opportunity isn’t gonna keep knocking.  

After you flip off the lights + peer through the blinds; it’s gonna walk away.

Opportunity is gonna knock on someone else's door who is keeping the porch light on, the walkway clear + a fresh pot of coffee brewing.

Amen.